Greetings comrades ~
GOSH, it's been a while since I updated my blog, and while I am writing this, you may not even know that its been almost 2 weeks since I set my foot in the states. Yesh, it still feels so surreal to me, knowing that I've finally realized one of my childhood dream of pursuing my studies abroad. Despite the terribleee jet-lag, everything else turned out pretty good here. I mean, the orientation phase was smooth, we're almost done with all those tedious registrations and class scheduling, the campus is really HUGE and beautiful, the apartment I'm staying at is really nice, the weather is perfect, and to sum it all up, I have been settling well. Thank you God. Well, classes are scheduled to start tomorrow and to be frank, I am really not looking forward to it. I am not ready to get back to my studies, I'm still in the mood of holiday and plus, I am really freaking out. I AM! I feel so intimidated by how the system here works, and I am really worried about performing well in my studies. What if I can't and don't do well here? I have been trying to avoid all these negative thoughts that have been playing in my head over and over again, but I can't seem to push them away. I mean, it's out of control. You cant help but to entertain all these thoughts when you're in a place that is very new and foreign to you, a place that is thousands of miles away from your home, a place where you're a complete stranger, a place where you learn to stand on your own feet and do everything on your own. No matter how hard you try to put a smile on your face to attract a dose of positive energies, no matter how much you try to console yourself, deep down, you can't help but to feel insecure and afraid despite the initial euphoria and excitement. Maybe, it's just a matter of time. I do not know but that's all I can hope and wish for. I really hope that I will get accustomed to the life here, and gain the inspiration and momentum to concentrate on my studies. After all, God is always with me and I know that he will never let me down as long as I put effort into achieving my aspirations and goals. Three years in the states, and I am certainly going to make the best out of it, it's going to be an experience of a lifetime. Pray for me guys, I hope it's not too much to ask for!
p/s: I've uploaded pictures in fb, check 'em out. :)
