Thursday, June 23, 2011

So long and Goodbye, INTEC!

Gosh, I know this is cliche, but it is indeed very true when they say, Time flies. The atmosphere in the UiTM hall this morning was sombre, marking our graduation and departure from Intec. In fact, everyone has been posting countless emo comments on their fb wall since the past two days. The reason is obvious, this is the time when everyone starts to appreciate everyone and everything that they've come to know and experienced here in Intec. Too many things, just too many since the past two years. I still remember those days when I used to mourn and mourn on SAT practice test every Wed, and how tiring it was to sit in the hall for 4 hours until the test ends. I also remember those days during the Spring sem when me, everyone, used to complain on the immense workload and when it was all over, we were really surprised and grateful to have made it through together. Even the flashes of memories during the American Indulgence Fiesta, Liberal Arts Fiesta and many others are still fresh and vivid in mind. Beautiful. Frankly speaking, when I first set my foot in Intec, I did not know that this place was going to change me this much, in positive ways of course. The friendships that I forged, the mistakes that I made, the lessons that I learnt and all the challenges that I overcame have definitely inculcated a twist of maturity in me. I can definitely see my myself growing up, and I ain't the angst-filled teenager that I used to be back then anymore. Being in Intec and being surrounded by brilliant, smart people everywhere, I began to see myself within circumstances of the greater environment around me that challenged my views and principles. Yet, I strongly believe that I am still the person that I have always been in terms of my life principles and faith. 

Being in the American program, I have learnt to speak up for myself and fight for what I believe in. I have learned to be more proactive, dynamic and constructive in my effort to be excellent in everything that I was pursuing. Thank you to all the lecturers in helping me to do so. I don't know if I did maximize my potential to the fullest, but I do believe that I have given it my best shot and there is still ALOT of room for self improvement which I will learn soon. I aint the smart-est student who constantly scored 90+ for Calculus, but I do know that I did fairly well in my studies and managed to reach a CGPA of at least 3.5, I am contented :) Being in the ATUSA HICOM has also taught me so much about self-confidence and responsibility in making sure that I complete all the tasks that have been entrusted on me. I am so proud of myself to have been the project director for many of the events organized by Atusa, never have I ever thought that I would be able to carry such a heavy responsibility on my shoulder in upholding the pride of Atusa. 

Thank you God, for blessing me with with all the courage and determination that I will ever need! :) Thank you to each and everyone of you, thank you for being a part of my life, and thank you for all the wonderful memories, be it sweet or better. I'll cherish 'em all, I promise. I have come a long way and, I still have a LONG way to go. Another phase of life has just passed, and I should be all pumped up to give the next chapter a kickstart that it needs to propel myself through it with confidence and faith. It's always hard to bid gooodbye, so, I ain't going to say that. Let me just say, See you soon, the world is small. :) We'll be Friends Forever.

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Linkin Park - Burning In The Skies

I used the deadwood to make the fire rise
The blood of innocence burning in the skies




Another song by Linkin Park that would make you ponder on it, and how they sometimes seem to explain everything that's happening in your life through their cryptic words. This song, just like any of their songs can be interpreted in numerous ways, be it literally, metaphorically, or subtly. The basic theme or idea of this video is about the atomic or perhaps nuclear bombing that causes the blood of innocence to be shed through war. Just like that, one second is all it takes to destroy countless lives in different corners of the world. On the other note, when you critically interpret this lyric, there's something more to it, something deep, more vulnerable and melancholic. I don't know about others, but in my opinion, this song is about how one feel when they lose something they want or let go of something they have. It's about the sorrow and guilt that someone feels due to something that has been done or undone to someone, by he or she. Perhaps, some mistakes in the past. Or, it may also be referring to any dreams which you may have wrongly chosen for yourself, and thus failing to achieve it. You seem to be letting go of those dreams that you desired, sadly, yet they have taught and guided you in finally realizing what you really want in your life. Nevertheless, the scope of this song is really wide, which was why I said it has various interpretation. I was reading through some of the song interpretations in a website, and I found one that really caught my attention because it was somewhat different, yet it made sense. It was by this dude called adamguy17. From his view, he believes that this song is actually about coming to term with the fact your other half is not the right one for you and that the both of you are not meant to be. In order to prevent any hurt or pain in the future, you are intentionally trying to destroy the relationship by breaking up but it ain't easy because it is painful knowing the fact that the relationship meant a lot to the both of you and now, it hurts so badly, especially the innocent one. Worst of all, you are overwhelmed by guilt and you don't want the one you love to feel bad and apologize because deep down, you know that you do not deserve him/her anyway. You both saw this coming, yet it was impossible to stop because "the beating of the storm" was already acknowledged. Simply weren't meant to be. Sad, isn't it? but that's how life turn out to be sometimes, and that is why I love Linkin Park. They explain everything that happens in your life through their amazing songs, through that short 4 minutes of their songs, you feel as if your entire life has been explained. That's when you feel that you are not, and never alone in whatever it is that you are going through. Screw whoever who hates Linkin Park because only those who knows how to appreciate their songs and their words will be able to see how beautiful their songs can be, and I am so glad that I am one of them.